Give me another chance, I wanna grow up once again

"Give me some sunshine
Give me some rain
Give me another chance
I wanna grow up once again"

I am waiting for the production release to be deployed on the production server. Developers are working on the deployment issue and I have been waiting when it will be done. Just after the deployment ends I will start testing the new features. I am a Software Quality Assurance Engineer, it may sound odd, I am a big girl, and what have I been doing here in this teen ink site: http://www.teenink.com/hot_topics/
My younger brother, he has been working on writing an essay for college admission. One day he showed me an essay from this site that was so short and amazing. That was the first day I came to this site.
Today I was just browsing FaceBook, then teen ink came into my mind, thought lets read some essays. I am not that much good in English, as English is not my native language. Was facing some difficulties to get the unknown words in those articles, but later thought lets continue reading.
I am feeling very excited and upset also, after reading few essays. I have been wondering how rich the teenagers are these days, in their thoughts and with their dreams. When I am a big girl, I have discovered myself with a sad truth, that I was basically an aimless person. I didn't even know there are thousands of exciting things to do. When I was a teenager, besides going to school, the only thing I used to do is reading novels and watching TV. Growing up in a middle class family from a third world country, in a city like Dhaka the only option for me was reading.
We had TV but with only one channel. We used to get the newspaper and that's it. I didn't even have any music system to listen to.
When I went to University, in some cultural programs, I was amazed when I used to hear nice songs. I am not from a family that has any cultural background. My cousins, they were also busy only with the study. No extracurricular activities. So I actually grew up in a world where I was totally blind. I did not know the taste of anything.
These days when I see any nice photograph, I used to think may be I could be a photographer. When I hear a nice Tagore song, I think what if I could sing. When I see Tennis on TV, I think I could be a player. When I meet some expert Software Programmer, I used to think I could be a good programmer also. Now I feel the desire in me to learn something special. It could be any nice thing that I like a lot. I love to read blogs, I used to read some recipes, I have one digital camera now, I have books on software development in my bookshelf now, but after office when I get back home each day, I feel so tired, but still I have to do some regular tasks, like prepare food, make the lunch ready for the next day etc.

Before going to bed, I become sad again. Another day has gone. I had written nothing, I could not manage any time to learn any new thing that I want to. It is just too late, childhood should be the best time to learn, to discover, to explore, to taste, to love, to laugh....
Today while I was reading in teen ink, the only thing came up in my mind is "Give me another chance, I wanna grow up once again"
Quoted from a song from the movie '3 Idiots'